been busy on this end. what is with summer time being busy? getting my classroom ready, helping some with VBS, and getting everything ready for accessories the show. time consuming. organizing samples, shipping out product, printing line sheets, making sure all things are done..
on the school front, i have been thinking about the curriculum, reading through the textbooks, re-arranging and cleaning my classroom, decorating the walls, and trying to figure out what i want to send home as far as first day of school memos... :-)
i find out in a week who my little 3rd graders will be. did i not tell you.. yes, i will be teaching 3rd grade. i know i told you i got a new job.. but alas.. it is with little ones. a change from my high school kids from the last 7 years.
i find my philosphy about education has changed some since having children of my own. i just have to figure out how that translates everyday with my students. the atmosphere at this school is a bit more traditional than my last school which was quite progressive in their approach to education. i will be working closely with a team a teachers.. and i will have a full time aid.. something i have never had in the 12 years i have taught. so there are some major adjustments going to happen over the next couple of weeks .. and hopefully i will not disappoint myself or others in the process. i think that is what i am really afraid of.
I like to always do my best. it is something i have had to pray about. nothing wrong with doing a good job... nothing wrong with doing a knock your socks off job... something wrong with feeling bad if i don't do it right - right away. i think this stems from being pretty much "average" my whole life. :-) can anyone relate.
when i was growing up, i always felt i was really special. but no one treated me like i was exceptional at anything. i remember when i graduated, i was one of those students who earned a scholarship. i remember the librarian (think south american missionary kind of lady).. came up to me in the "receiving line" and said. "wow.. i didn't think you would get a scholarship." yes, i know.. she was wrong.. i looked at her, and said. "what, you didn't think i was smart enough?" i remember her looking all "taken aback" that i said that to her face after she insulted me.. and thus i really think the quest to "stand out" began.
it is like i have never stoped trying to prove something to someone.
doesn't everyone want to be good at something?
i got issues ladies. :-)